Amazing Happenings

Since my last post a few weeks ago, strange things have been happening.  The way they all connect tells me they are being sent down especially for me.  I have noted them all in my mind under "Notes to Self". 

I'm not sure what is next.  I have chewed and chewed on all of them again and again, nothing, they are all still just notes.  I think I'm afraid and that really irritates me. 

I have spent the past two years climbing out of the bottomless well I fell into without warning.  They were filled with a type of fear and paranoia I never knew existed.  I used to read it all the time "feeling alone in a room full of people" and thought it sounded dumb.  It is very real, I found out just how real it was.  The noise in my head was unbearable along with the ringing in my ears.  Somedays I would feel like I was in slow motion, just like you see in the movies when something is going to happen. 
I hit rock bottom about two years ago and today I can say I have climbed out of that well, but still sitting on the edge.  I'm terrified I will fall back in, but yet I can't get off the edge either. 

That's frustrating to me, I have these amazing experiences that I am stumbling upon and I am still afraid.  Why am I hesitating?  I wish I knew the answer.

I will continue to review my notes everyday, I don't want to lose them and I hope that I will be able to put them all together, apply them and live by them the way God wants me to.


Lily

Here we go.....

I am new to this so I ask everyone to go easy on me. I came across a tragic story a couple of weeks ago that to this day will not leave my mind or heart. It was about a young pregnant mother who was killed in a head on collision, leaving behind a husband, two young daughters and a newborn son. I don't even recall how I ended up reading her blog, especially the one posted just hours before the accident. I realized how beautiful and priceless her posts would be to her children one day.

On new year's day I decided to give "blogging" a try. I had no idea what I was getting into and had absolutely no experience writing. If there was a way for your brain to generate a ticker tape of all of your thoughts, views and opinions as they go through your mind I would be set. So here I am 9 days later and all I have done is set up my page. Whew!

I have read and viewed several blogs, most of them done by mom's sharing the ins and outs of their daily lives. Some hold nothing back and others are not as deep. I haven't really decided what my blog will be about or for, maybe just a little bit of everything and anything.

I am here because of a young mother's story, she dedicated her life to God and her family. Her faith and love can be felt through her blog, it's amazing and truly a miracle from God. May you rest in peace, Brie Gomez.